Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Insomnia, Insanity, & a Meltdown

Well, to be honest the title covers it.

Those that know me, know I suffer from allergies, asthma, (the two prior are a short trip to bronchitis), and occasional insomnia.  I've been up since 0700 yesterday.  Thank you steroids!  It does give a person a lot of time to think and get things done.  Perhaps sleep is overrated.  Remind me that I said that next week, when I collapse from getting off the steroids, if you can wake me up from my several day slumber.... The case of bronchitis is not that surprising.   We've had one case of pneumonia, a couple of cases of bronchitis, & one that won't go to the doctor, so who knows what the hell she has had for the last two weeks.  Did any of these people stay home from work?  HELL NO.  Thank you very much.  Grrrr....  I should go kiss everyone of them and give this back.

Onward....Okay, I had a major melt down over my guild.  Well, not really my guild.  I got sucked into something, and I was a pawn on the chess board.  An unwitting one, but I played my part.  Well, I got angry.  Mistake #1.  I threw a hissy fit on the guild Facebook page.  Mistake #2.  I publicly announced I was quitting the guild.  Mistake #3.  Yes, I was an idiot.  I admit it.  What can I say?  I think I covered it all.  For a while there, I felt like I was back in middle school or high school.  I hate that kind of stuff, and I got sucked right on into mess.  I was always in the "out" crowd at school, and didn't make many friends.  I had acquaintances.  Now I remember why.  All I can say is that once burned, I'm done, not twice shy.  I am more of a black/white kind of person.  I don't really do shades of gray.  I'm Sheldon off the Big Bang with a little bit of Leonard, but not enough. (Yes, I am the one they force on vacation to get a break from and am lost because I don't know what to do with myself away from work that long.)  I don't understand people & I don't fit in.  Fact.  I know it.  I am an acquired taste, and not many get into my "inner circle."  Wait, what inner circle.... ? Well, I covered that.

Insomnia also plays into too much internet shopping from surfing the web too much when I should be sleeping and desperately wish I wish.  IG Destash is EVIL.  Not really, but to say I am in big trouble with my Darling Husband (thank you for letting me live after my last destash experience.)  I won't even repeat what he said when he saw the e-mail.  Darned shared bank acct & e-mail acct.  Any way..... I am a fabricaholic.  I need a 12-step program and a support group.  I am now banned by said Darling Husband from Destash, the LQS, and any fabric buying.  Thank goodness I have a stash.  Sew My Stash 2015, I am now fully in with you.

Well, 0430 and the DH has woke up.  Off to play in my fabric.....

No, there was no real point in this post.  I just wanted to say what I had to say.  Do I care if anyone reads this?  No.  Why do I blog?  I have no idea.  I'll blame insomnia and too small a house and no sewing room.  That's my story and I am sticking to it!

Later!!! I'll be back and you have been warned.....


  1. You are human! Life gets us all twisted around sometimes and we have to find our own way home (so to speak). I get you, I totally understand - as right now I am also facing that same major melt down and the only think stopping me right now are my friends (I have so few to - and you are one of those). Hugs girl, there is nothing wrong with being human and having a heart (even if those evil ones just want to crush it lets tell them to go to H3LL!)

  2. Hey, we all have days like that - too much stress, too many hours of no sleep. What's important is you know where you made mistakes and you're taking steps to be honest about fixing them. That's what it's all about - life lessons and how to play well with others. I am so sorry you were a pawn. That part sucks. And I'm really GLAD you're not quitting the guild. And I'm totally in awe of you being so public with your apology.

    1. Thanks. I was taught to own up to my mistakes and do what I could to make things right. I appreciated you being glad that I'm not leaving the guild. Nice to be wanted!!!! :)